I've had to accept that practice just ain't happening for a few months now. =\
Yoga . . . depends. When I'm really bad, it's actually toxic: it's too much time spent with too little to distract my brain with a body that's never quite as good at what I'm doing as I want it to be. This is a similar reason I don't meditate or do other tasks that allow me too much time to think clearly (because of the way my brain works, most physical activity just takes the distraction of my body and the world away; my best trance states are when walking with an iPod).
Hyping up my awareness is really bad for me, if the inside of my brain is made of rusty nails: I just wind up MORE crazy. When you add that to the inertia problems I get when the MDD, is reeeeally bad. (Because then I'm fighting the inertia problems to do something everyone says should make me feel better, but it doesn't, and now I'm crazy AND wrong, at the same time!) So I just sort of put it aside, then.
I'm getting back to a state where I should start going back, though, because once I'm not needing to actively make a lot of mental noise to make the ideation go away, it becomes way more beneficial, and of course brings the exercise-caused good-chemicals with it.
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Date: 2010-05-05 03:20 pm (UTC)Yoga . . . depends. When I'm really bad, it's actually toxic: it's too much time spent with too little to distract my brain with a body that's never quite as good at what I'm doing as I want it to be. This is a similar reason I don't meditate or do other tasks that allow me too much time to think clearly (because of the way my brain works, most physical activity just takes the distraction of my body and the world away; my best trance states are when walking with an iPod).
Hyping up my awareness is really bad for me, if the inside of my brain is made of rusty nails: I just wind up MORE crazy. When you add that to the inertia problems I get when the MDD, is reeeeally bad. (Because then I'm fighting the inertia problems to do something everyone says should make me feel better, but it doesn't, and now I'm crazy AND wrong, at the same time!) So I just sort of put it aside, then.
I'm getting back to a state where I should start going back, though, because once I'm not needing to actively make a lot of mental noise to make the ideation go away, it becomes way more beneficial, and of course brings the exercise-caused good-chemicals with it.